School-Bullies are making me depressed and Down.?

Question

I'm 14 years old, I'm attending Middle-School.
Well if you can even call it a Middle-School, It may as well be considered Hell for many teens.
And i'm one of them, My problem here is, The kids, The principle, And the teachers. I have been bullied for basically my whole life. And it all started when i was 4 years old. Kids would tease and taunt me, But from teasing and taunting it went to Bullies and Laughter till it transformed into Shoving and pushing me. You must understand this has been going on for 10 years, Wich at one point really got to me and literally destroyed me. Well, They didn't really destroy me but i started to break mysellf, My own toughts where the ones that led me to where i am now, Depressed and Scared. I started cutting at the age of 11, Thinking it would help me trough my struggle, Wich it did, But ofcourse with my luck, I had to suffer from the consequences. So i couldn't go swim anymore, Or the kids would bully me with the scars. Everytime we had to go swimming, I'd skip school, Acting like i was sick. Wich was every monday basically. It started getting worse, At 12 years old i started smoking and cutting, Because the bullies got worse once i entered middle-school, This was the phase where the shoving and pushings began mixed with fights, They called me emo-whore, Pushed me against locker and shoved me onto the ground. I learned mysellf to build up a wall, But the wall made me push mysellf away from those who wanted to help me. I had a few friends when i first entered middle-school, But those left me one they started bullying me again, I guess they were scared. Scared, That they would also be bullied. And i understand that. I would come home, And went right to sleep, I decided this was the best, If i slept i wouldn't think about the bullies i'd be dreaming about nice things. I was wrong. When i went to sleep i only had Nightmares, Not the typical nightmares a bullied child would have, The ones were once you woke up, The sweat was dripping from your body, And you'd be thanking god that it was only a dream.My nightmares were horrible, I'd wake up screaming and crying after that. So i couldn't run from my problems, I couldn't forget them. This made me upset and angry. I couldn't control mysellf, I'd scream and cry the whole day in my room. I pushed everything away from myself. I started pushing myself away, My emotions; Everything. It was like i was lifeless. Everytime i looked into the mirror you could see the pain and dullness in my eyes. My skin turned palewhite, I stopped eating. My hair was dull and lifeless. I looked terrible, Even my mother noticed, She took me to a therapist, But i refused, I didn't want to tell my problems to an asshole who doesn't give a **** and only does his job for the money (At this point i'm getting really angry so i'm sorry for my language.) I didn't want anyone to know how i felt, They didn't care anyways. After i turned 13, I didn't go outside anymore, Scared of what people would think. When i did go outside, I'd have panic attacks, And i couldn't breathe. Now i'm 14, Depressed like ****. I'm thinkig about running away or just ending my life. My mother doesn't understand, Nor does she want to know it, She says i'm overreacting. And maybe i am, But tell me, How would you react? But here's my question. What should i do?

Answer 1

@Harry I Am 15 When I Was 14 I Constantly Got Bullied So I Know How It Feels My Family Said The Same Thing Ignore It/ Kill Them with Kindness It Will Be Fine. Finally I Couldn't Take It Any More And The People Who Would Say Stuff I Would Kill The With Kindness And That Didn't Work With Everyone It Finally Got So Bad I Got Pulled Out To Be Home Schooled. But If You Tell The Teachers They Can't Say Who Told Them And That Would Be Breaking Confidentiality And They Can't Do That. Also Talk To You Mom About Online Schooling. It Much Easier And Relives A Lot Of Stress. Talking To Her About K12 It Free And They Send You The Stuff You Need Expect Pencils Paper And Stuff Like That. Tell You Mom That You Just Can't Handle It And You Feel Depressed All The Time. - I Hope This Helped (:

Answer 2

Here are your options:

1) Even if you do think that counsellors help for getting money, you should still try for a first. As they say precaution is better than cure.

2) Have you ever tried saying something back to the bullies. Take a breath and shout at them to go away.

3)Tell a concerning and higher authorities like teachers, and parents about the bullying.

4) Do noot be afraid. Be your true self. You had friends because they liked you you were. Stand up for youself. Be strong

Lastly, All the best!!

Answer 3

I feel bad for you. But wouldn't you expect a girl who has scars on her wrist, racoon eyes, and smokes to be bullied? I mean seriously, if I saw someone with cuts on their wrist I would think they need help and stare at them. It's human nature to stare. We haven't seen many people like those.



Therapists don't help just for money. They went into that career because THEY want to help people. Besides, everyone loves money. If you're sick and need to see a doctor, you're not going to go because they just want money from you? Stop having that mentality. It's a win-win situation.



If you stop wearing makeup and stop cutting that's less things that bullies will bully you about. You should go to a different school and don't make any friends just do your work. That way no one wants to talk to you because you're quiet and shy, so no one will bother you especially if you blend in.



Stop sleeping..instead do these:

~Homework

~Shower; pretty yourself

~Facebook( you don't have to add anyone, just play the games on there. If you can think of a game, they have it.)

~Answer questions on yahoo!answers

~Listen to opera,violin, nice music

~Go somewhere in your neighborhood that's public to hangout there.

~Do some yoga in your house.. crack open a window, listen to music while excersing

~Hang out in someone's house that you actually like and they like you. If not, that's okay. You will always meet buttheads in life.

~Go to an after - school program where no one will bother you.

~Help your mom clean or something

~Watch TV/movie(The movie Rio is good).



And for the pushing/shoving, tell the dean and he will make them stop. Also see your school's guidance counselor she can make you feel better, trust me. Been through it all :)

Answer 4

i was in the same boat when i was younger i moved schools and nothing change so i just pretended that it didn't bug me just laugh it off and be your self you cares what others think i know it hard and i tried to kill myself but i was hospitalized and then i got older and now i got a daughter and it is hard you just gotta be strong and it will get better i promise you that. they just pick on people weaker then them cause they weak on the inside and they know it hurts you and makes them feel better that's all they want just laugh it off if you can and it will get better.

Answer 5

whatever you do don't end your life , life is hard i know and i been through all that but don't give up ever theres a solution out there i promise u that gotta have faith im 15 and im struggling with depression also good luck my friend:)