no ive never seen him or really talked to him since he has been dead. but something is weighing on my heart i need to tell him and get an answer from him, somehow. dont tell me to write a letter and put at his grave... i had sent a letter to him before he died and it was returned to me, he never got it. i think if he had received it, he would still be alive now. please only serious answers. its difficult loosing someone you love, dont make it harder for me by criticizing me.