I am sick with depression, someone save me please!?

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Please i beg of you just read the whole goddamn thing and dont give nasty comments, please just hear me out and then respond, just try to understand my words i just want you to understand!

I am so depressed i feel sick. I hate life and i hate myself. All i want is for someone to care about me or love me. I am a guy btw, but i am not gay. I just have no friends, and my parents hate me because i am not popular enough or good enough for them. I am also not manly, as you can see by this post, I am so desperate for some positive energy that i come here! But i have a question, what do you think it is that i am looking for and why do i want it? I dont have any friends but then...

I do have "friends". But i can't stand their guts. I hate them so much, and they didnt even betray me or anything. The people who did that, i have completely let them out of my head, as they are pathetic band geeks and no one likes them.

But i am bitter. These "friends" are not very friendly. They are just there. They do not make me feel good, but angry. I am frequently lost in their conversations because i do not know about Cars or computer ****. They just dont make me feel happy to be their friend! Their personalities arent that great, and they frequently make me the butt of the jokes. They are also very ugly, and i added that only because i think that ugly people have ugly personalities. i too am ugly, therefore i have a terrible personality, because no one loves me, and my mom likes to make fun of how much weight i have gained. I am not an obtuse giant fat behemoth, just all this depression has made me dive into warm food. I say warm food because once i almost had friends and i was so happy! And i couldnt wait to hang out with them and i was so excited, and my chest sort of felt warm or like a warmth inside me. But they ditched me for cooler people, Now i feel cold and dead, and the warm food briefly makes me feel alive.

I am permanently damaged, and i have given into despair. I now have no plans to marry as my marriage would likely be verbally and emotionally abusive as my parents, and i know of no way to be a kind husband from my parents influence. I know i shall be alone as i have been all my life. I have been depressed for 7 years, each year becoming worse. But my dream is to be a film maker and become rich and famous. Then i will feel like somebody. Someone who isnt a loser. And i shall laugh at those who ignored me and look up at me and how i am now better than them.

But now i doubt this. It was my dream, but each year my life has become worse and i have been cracking. I am so depressed that i can't do homework and my grades have slipped from year to year. I am not failing but i have 1 C, 2 A's 1 B and 1 D.

I want a best friend. I want someone i can trust. I want a friend so close that its like having a brother. I want to feel loved. I can't have a girlfriend as i am too awkward around them and i am not good enough. I am so sick. You don't know how terrible it is. I feel like i am in prison. I am horrified that its my senior year and i have accomplished nothing. They all say High School is better than Middle School well its not! I hate telling this to councillors as it wont help me! They can't make people love me! I am not a mean person. I am nice to everyone, i try my hardest to be nice to every one and they all just walk over me or a laugh at how shy and awkward i am! I know i have an ugly personality because no one likes me and i hate these friends for not being good enough! Is it too much to ask for one close friend who understands you? Am i asking for too much?

I know you cant do much for me, but if you read the whole thing and respond maybe you can at least temporarily make me feel better!

Answer 1

Hey man, I'm going through hell right now myself.. if you want to e-mail me to talk about it my address is [e-mail].

Answer 2

Ok, I've been there, done this. In the final analysis you must take care of you. If you don't who will take on your monumental tasks? Tell both of your parents that you will take care of them to the extent that you are ABLE and that your partner goes where you go. They will not refuse him if you let them know that you are not going to help unless they stop being so controlling over you. You have the right to be happy, so do what it takes to be happy. If that's as simple as having access to your partner, so be it. They will accept him before they will lose you because of it. IF you don't want to hurt any feelings, become a nun, live in a cave, come on, be practical, You can't have it both ways. If you hurt some feelings, don't forget yours were hurt too. Set some limits, live your life in spite of what your parents are going through. This too shall pass and one day you will look back and still think you could have done more. This is guilt associated with the grief you will feel after your parents are gone. You can't do anything about it but cope. Your parents control you now, learn that the only one you can control is you, don't be manipulated. You can still care for your parents and not be controlled by them. Try it. Good Luck.

Answer 3

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Answer 4

First of all and foremost , you are a valuable person, very valuable. Being in middle school and high school is very hard. People are so fickle. It is very hard to find a true and good friend.

You must start with you first, we all have insecurities, you just have to work thru them. You need to start today, thinking of your self as a valuable and important person. You cannot depend on others to make you feel better, people will fail you, including parents. I do hope you are successful in your career, YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!! Believe in yourself. You are not permanently damaged, you have just been beaten down by circumstances, and situations, I know you are longing for a true friend, someone you can trust, they are out there , but hard to find, i think you would be surprised at how many others your age feel this way, and are going thru the same thing as you.

Just keep your chin up, believe in yourself, get your grades up and do your best. I believe in You. God Bless. By the way, I don't want to make you feel better temporarily, feel better all the time.

Answer 5

personaly I know how you feel. I too am Desperatly Depressed and its funy that you have posted this cuz i too have come here for some help, even though i most likely will not find it. I have also wasted most of my highschool years i am now a junior, i have tried to get involved but unfortunatly always ive been pushed away. My friends are just figures who just help me get by and past the time away, they dont really notice how i truely feel. i dont believe im ugly but im for sure not beautiful, nothing like my friends. i wish to be rid of how socially awkward i am as well and hopefully just maybe i can, but i have yet learned to do so. you may or may not care to know about my self depression but the thought is i got out how i felt to someone i can realate with and u can understand that ur not alone with this terrible battle brought upon both of us, if u would like to talk e-mail me

Answer 6

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I am sick with depression, someone save me please!?

Please i beg of you just read the whole goddamn thing and dont give nasty comments, please just hear me out and then respond, just try to understand my words i just want you to understand!



I am so depressed i feel sick. I hate life and i hate myself. All i want is for someone to care about me or...

Answer 8

In my opinion, it seems that you have an average life and you are looking fore more...

i cant relate to your problems.. but i can say wait for college where GEEKS, and JOCks and other cliques dont exist anymore.... if you are that unhappy and depressed, i say go out and meet new people.. i think you need a girlfriend who will show you love and bring you happiness but you need confidence to get a girl..

Answer 9

If you want to email me and talk I'll be up for it. I'm a 20 year old guy. I think I know how you feel to a degree. Life is **** for everyone! [e-mail]

Answer 10

I feel you. Plz keep strong, life goes on.

Answer 11

I am the same. How are feeling now? You wanna talk? [e-mail]

Answer 12

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