Ok so first of all, you're not alone, technically you are but that's your own fault. You can't expect other people to pop up and say hi to you, if you want friends, grab your confidence lotion, rub it into your skin and talk to someone. You think suicide will solve everything? No? What the facks wrong with you?
"I don't have friends, if I slit my wrists and die people will talk to me more"
No.
That's not what life is, life is about leaving your mark, making people notice you, being someone, people don't get that by being alone, not talking to people, not doing anything with their lives.
Now ***** listen to me. You're like 18,19 right? So you only just turned into an adult and you think by the time you're 20 your life has to be perfect or you're gonna kill yourself. Wow do you even hear yourself?
Do you know how long it takes people to even get the tiny bit of attention, FREAKING AGES!
You have a house right?
You have food and water?
You have a brain and a body?
You have all the things you need to live and that's not good enough for you?
You want everything served out on a plate for you so you can just waltz on through life not doing a damn thing?
No you have to earn your ****, you have to earn your friends, you have to earn the respect from the people around you.
You know what you can be? Anything. Anything you want, everything you can imagine of doing and you're gonna give that up because your social lifes dead? Fack sake, people die every day because of illnesses and diseases, don't you atleast owe it to them to do something, the stuff they can't?
No. You're just going to mock them, you're going to give up on your life before its begun, you're gonna laugh in the face of people who can't do the same things as you. Well then you deserve it.
You have a choice, everything you've done in your life is YOUR choice, you became who you are today, and YOU have the power to become a better person in the future.
If you're going to give that up for some lousey reason you may aswell be quick with it.
Now listen, get a therapist, go to a meeting, I don't know, get some help, have a holliday, meet some people and have some fun, you need to. You deserve a drink, get a lil drunk. A LITTLE drunk. You're life can be whatever you make it, don't be a douche and give it up before its begun. Because if you do I'll come into your house, stand over your corpse and piss on your face.
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