I just don't even know what to do anymore. Please help me?

Question

Hey, I'm a 15 year old boy, and I used self-harm. My best friend found out about it and she managed to help me to quit. She was with me throughout everything. She was even right by my side when I threw my two razorblades away. She told me that she was so happy that I quit and that she was so proud of me for quitting with self-harm. And I was even proud of myself. Well, we got out of school for winter break, and I don't get along very well with my family. Specifically my brothers and sisters. They always make fun of me cos I'm so different. Anyways, a bunch of things were going on and I managed to get a hold of a razorblade, and I cut. I didn't even think, I just did it. I feel so worthless and horrible. And I just know she (meaning my best friend) is gonna be mad at me and disappointed when she finds out. I just don't even know what to do. Please, what do I do? Thank you for your help.

Answer 1

Please get rid of your new razorblade. Suicide is truly not the answer. I don't mean to be preachy, but it's very true. I know that being teased and made fun of is not easy. I had terrible experiences myself and had suicidal thoughts as well. I did not have a great friend like you do to help me get through it. But I tell you, cutting is not the answer. I will never fully understand your situation because I am not in it, but I can offer you advice. Talk to your friend. I know that you are apprehensive in doing so, but if she truly does care about you, she will accept your news and help you get through it. Talk to her. Tell her your troubles. See if you can get away for a little bit and go for a walk or something. Please don't resort to cutting. When school starts up again, maybe see your guidance counselor, or a teacher that you feel comfortable talking with. You do not have to mention the cutting to them if you don't feel comfortable doing that. Tell them the reasons for your cutting and let them know that it is really bothering you. Those people are there to help you. If you let them know that you'd like to keep it confidential, I'm sure they would. If there is another adult or friend in your life that you feel safe talking to, go talk to them. I'm sure that they would love to take the time to talk to you and listen to what you have to say. Life can get super tough, and it seems like everyone's against you, or doesn't care that you have a problem. It's not true. I'm sure that if you look hard enough you'll find someone who cares for you. I hope that this helped! You sound like a really awesome person! I hope that a solution comes to you soon. You're not horrible and you are most certainly not worthless!! You're awesome! Hope this helped a little bit!

Answer 2

First off I am sorry to read about your trouble. Is your family aware of your pain. Try talking to your parents, siblings will often tease each other to the point of being mean. If you don't feel like you can talk to your parents, talk to a trusted teacher or clergy. If no teacher or clergy, call a Hotline for prevention, they can direct you to sources that can help. You are not alone, so don't think that you are weird or strange. I wish I could give you better advice, but no one should feel alone when they are young.

Answer 3

Tell your friend about it, she isn't going to be mad at you, she just wants to help you and will feel ur pain right with you. Also you should somehow communicate to your family how they make you feel, you don't have to tell them about your self harm, only tell them what you can, but you have to cut the problem at its source(:

Answer 4

Just tell her what went on. She'll understand and won't be as upset with you if you tried hiding it from her and she found out. She helped you through it before, she can help you now. Focus on the positive in life, also. Not the negatives!

Answer 5

You shouldn't self harm. Think about what your friend would say! Your ending your life bro, just live on self harm free!

Answer 6

Try do distract yourself.Play this fun,popular game,Maplestory.Download it at maplesea.com and play!Or you can watch tv.

Answer 7

Go outside look at the sky,look at the grass,the trees,your hands and realize how lucky you are to be alive and healthy. so please stop my friend. meditation is key to success.